Chosen Tidbits

1. God is Good!!! I know this is a cliched termed tossed around frequently b/t church folk, but for real, for real, God is Good. I'm being blessed in ways that I really don't feel that I deserve. Why do I feel that I don't deserve this blessings? Well i'm glad you asked. Lately I know that I have not been walking the spiritual journey that Christ requires of me. My prayer time has been lax and I'm not going to church as much as I used to and as much as I think I ought to be going. I have also been indulging in things where I need not indulge. While I'm doing these things I am constantly telling myself this is not what I am supposed to be doing. While I care not eloborate at the moment, this lets me know that God is still working on me and I truly am a work in progress. I'm just excited/ horrified to see what the end outcome is going to be. Through all of my faults, my strengths and my weaknesses, on entity has been a constant friend, and that is Jesus. I can't being to tell yall the situations where I've been in where it was Jesus who kept me. Only heaven and a select few people know. I know he has been there with me through some fires. For those of the praying persuasion, pray that whoever reads this post will manifest the life's plan that God, whomever you choose to see as God, has for them. As I have said before, there are forces out there that do not want us to succeed. May we pray to keep these forces at bay and let the fire of prosperity, joy, confidence, ect. consume us. LAWD, we need a revival, and let it begin in me!

2. The nature of my job permits me to handle classified information. Today I recieved a call from one of our clients asking for help. This person can be considered a celebrity, well a sports celebrity to say the least. He played professional sports for over 10 years, and was even selected as an All-Star. This brotha right here is not FLAT BROKE! He called my office today for some financial assistance. Now if this story was leaked to a major paper or gossip magazine, someone could make some dividends. While I could use the money, I don't think that I would want to out someone like that. I mean it's a really tempting offer and it would be difficult to have the person traced back to me. On second thought, i'm going to keep my mouth shut. I just don't see how someone who makes multi millions a year just from your contract, not to mention income from endorsements and appearances and be flat broke. I mean, they did not even stop playing that long ago. But I guess this can be expected. This person did serve time for cocaine possession. I guess that's where all the money went. But damn, MILLIONS of dollars gone. I guess appearances are everything b/c when I researched this person, they were pictured donning very expensive looking suits. All that glitters definitely is not gold.

3. So I don't know what to do. One of the boss' on the retail gig may have a lil crush on me. This is a male boss too. Now this person is normally off the hook, but he has been especially off the hook with me as of late. Last night it was no holds barred and just put it out there shamelessly. Now minding that he is usually off the hook, I don't know how to think b/c I am not out at my job, but maybe his gardar picked me up. He is ALWAYS nice to me. 1st instance, we were in the back deciding what to put out on the floor. There were some adidas appareal out there and he then looked at me while he was on his knees saying, ADIDAS, but said I-DID-ASS. I just laughted it off cause I was taken back and didn't know what to make of it. 2nd time, As we were putting said appareal away, I said something to him. I forgot what it was that i said, but he responded, "Did you say something about deep throat?" Again, i just laughted it off. I forgot what I said, but it was nothing along the lines of deep throat. 3rd time: I went to the managers office looking for another manager, but instead he was there. The door was shut so I knocked and he said, "Come in." The door was locked so i jiggled the handle letting him know it was locked. When he came to open the door he said, "Cum in. Get it? he he" He left for the night shortly after that and I don't know what to do or how to respond. This man looks like a male version of that over tanned character Madge on There's Something about Mary. He's the gay male version. He's also uber gay and white. Neither qualities really interests me in a partner. So hopefully I won't have to end up bitch slappin him. While I like the attention b/c sometimes I feel rough, I dont' really like it from him. Do you think that I am thinking too much into this? I don't recall him talking to any other of the males in the store like this.

On mroe thing. Not really a tidbit but a request. Chris Bilal, I'm not sure of ur sexual orientation or ur age. Actually i'm not really intersted in that. I know i'm puttin all my business out there but FCUK it! Would you like to go and have a cup of coffee sometimes or tea, as I'm sure ur not able to get into a bar yet. I want to pick ur brain. You seem to possess an interesting mind. I'm really trying to meet some other young socially conscious brotha's in the area, and he is in Baltimore. Promise I won't bite. :-)